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prefect's campwell... i have to start practising writting a report soon.... oh well... life's like that....
life will never be the way i want it to be....
anyways here is the STORY....
we went the day before yesterday that is saturday =)... gotta admit at first i have no mood to go at all because of the mppt that is just around the corner....
its like.... oh no im wasting my weekends just for the stupid camp....
went there.... without any sleep.... thats how sad it was....
in the bus we TRIED to play mahjong....
card mahjong... never see before???? its really hard to find but its cute.... hahaz... Jason called me to bring so i brought....
anyways.... it failed becuz it was really bumpy....
so i took out my mini cards....
really really mini.... but its nice and awesome....
but they rather play using the normal size cards becuz.....
their hands is just too big... hahaz.....
reach there.... aww my lovely cousin, Justin carried my bag.... hahaz... remember i didn't bully him.... i ask and he just did it....
well GUYS BE LIKE HIM AND I BET WITH U....
u'll definately find a girlfriend easily.... just too bad my cousin doesn't like anyone...
I THINK!!!
hmm............. i was hungry when i reach there =)
and it was only like 9 plus... this is what happens when u're hyper and didn't eat breakfast =)
err... to cut to the chase.... we played mahjong for a while.... then
it came to the activities.... well.... im not those ppl who is scared of heights...
so yeah one thing is already taken care of....
others hahahahaz.....
flying fox was the best among all.....
dunno to laugh or not to.... hui wen got stuck half way.... it was pretty funny....
at night we gotta prepare a presentation....
our group did a play.....
talk like crap ended up only planning for like 10 minutes.... gotta admit we screw up a bit cuz we were the first group....
thx to my brilliant idea... Justin Chan, J. Loh and Weng Hoe... became the prostitute....
really hot hot one....
hahaz i love when they just wear towels as their MINI skirt....
moving on.....
we ended our session bout 1 plus close to 2....
then its maggi time =) =) =)
hahaz.....
lepak around.... walk walk... talk talk....
gossip gossip.... till happy happy....
i know who Hillary likes now.... hahaz... but im not telling..... (dun worry)
no one ask u guys to gossip so loud....
Jason, Nicole, Anthea, Ee Keen, Justin Chan, Rui Sheng and i....
hahaz the other group... kalkena, adeline, aaron and weng hoe....
we all didnt sleep....
hahaz.... Weng Hoe slept first.....
Sheng brought out the blankets and pillows from the room....
wait u know where were we???
on the stairs.... u're probably thinking we slept on normal stairs...
not really actually.... its a little rocky and stuff... but its cold and nice....
we slept at bout 4.... the bout 5 we all ran into the room... hahaz... freezing cold...
in the room was pretty warm... so it was really nice....
the sad part is we gotta wake up at 7.15.... its like OMG....
woke up all of us like zoombies.... =)
jungle trakking again
sort of.... well i dun really know how to explain...
anyways..... its time to go back.... sad right....
hmm.... in the bus was really tired...
so i tried to sleep but i failed to...
hahaz.... justin became the victim.... SOWEEEEEE.....
he's the best man i tell u....
i 'slept' on his shoulder when the bus broke down.....
the bus actually DIED!!!!
over heated.... that made me cant go to church.... =(
argh..... Hillary thought.... i was.... ahem with him.... then i laughed... its just so funny..... cousins... together...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
in the bus.... disturb Sher Rin (kp).....
hahaz... match making company....
i found her a new target.... but Hui Wen said my company will die in one month....
ill never make that happen... trust me.... before we went down...
we found Wen Jo a new target to....
surprisingly.... she took it really seriously....
Awwww.... thats the end...
potong steam right
all the why's in life~I'll be waiting for you...~
Sometimes tears just fall without a reason,
Thinking about the days that went by,
It seems like it was just yesterday,
Yet it has been a year the things that actually happen.
Why can't we jusy start all over agian?
Many things happen to both of us over the years,
Here i am sitting while thinking about the sweet memories,
I've been wanting to forget but somehow I just can't.
Some feelings can't fade away that easily,
I haven't experience this ever before in my life,
I've been thinking a lot,
Why you? Why not someone else in my past?
You can't blame me for thinking about you a lot,
Cause u're just so good to me,
When we were together,
I didn't talk to you much.
But when you were a thousand miles away,
I'll be missing you a lot,
All that is in my mind,
Are those happy moments we had.
Why did you just let me go?
Without even telling me why?
Why did it just slip away?
Why does this happen to me?
Why...
What actually happened,
We were happy together,
Suddenly a major break down happen,
And all we did was stare at each other.
Relationship often ends in sadness,
Mainly because of fights,
But we did not even fight,
And it just ended with a snap.
You gave me hope a thousand of times,
You comfort me everytime I had any problems,
You always put a smile on my face,
Why was i so stupid as not to tell you the truth that I really appreciate what you did a lot.
Now that everything is too late,
All my heart tells me is,
Wait for him, give him time,
And hopefully one day he'll be back.
The memories doesn't fade eventhough I really want it to,
Instead it keeps getting worse and worse everytime,
The more I keep my feelings in me,
The more my tears can't hold back.
Crying can't solve a thing,
But what can?
Now that I'm all shattered in pieces,
Trying to glue me back doesn't work anymore.
"We love but once, for once only are we perfectly equipped for loving."
life's back to normalsoftbal tournament hae finished.... and we're considered very lucky to get 1st runner's up actually..
i didn't even think we could enter finals.... why???
cause im in the team =P
i can't play well and im in it??? that's creepy though....
anyways....
sooooo sad
 MR CHIA is not going to be around anymore!!!!
NOOOOOO i want him.... he's just so nice to gossip with...
non stop talking only.... why can't other teacher leave DJ???
by the way... his wife just delivered a baby girl couple of days ago....
OOoooOOO right!!!
exams are coming again.... bout 3 weeks plus only....
i'm not even prepared at all..... i don't think i will be....
no mood to study cause of lots and lots of reason....
so if i don't fail this coming term....
its a super miracle..... im serious....
i know lots of people will be saying yeah right and stuff....
but this time.... its seriously real.........
i just don't feel like studying anymore......
~sometimes i rather be alone.... then being with someone~
SOFTBALLTO TELL U THE TRUTH..........
i dun like that game... it looks interesting but its not...
still prefer badminton.... well, today was suppose to be the election....
but i dun see Mr. Chia there....
*sigh* i dun even know the people there.....
i dun even know a single thing....
i mean.... what's a training for???
well maybe i just dun click that well with you cheerleaders......
u knew who i were last time before this....
now u dun even say hi or talk to me......
luckily nicole was there today.... if not i dun even know what to do anymore.....
i hate life.....
and i, starting to hate school a lot.....
i dun get a single thing.....
got training during holidays also never inform us......
then go for nuts only......
no attendance taken... i mean????
HELLO!!!
sorry ppl im really pist right now
sorry mom.... i dun think im like u... national player for softball....
i mean how can u stand it!!!!
after this............argh........................
i lost almost practically every single subject to my cousin.....
i hate being it the same class... because he becomes extra kiasu and wanna beat me...
dunno since when he became so freaking smart....
im so going to beat him next term.... watch out jus....
anyways.... reults are back... except EST....
hate hate hate that subject.... not really interesting and after the SPM results this year....
i dun think i like it anymore.....
the only subject i win justin is MORAL...
i mean what a subject to win him in.... of all things that???
i mean....
hello there are 10 subjects... dun i sound so kiasu??? wait till u see justin and u sooo wanna change your mind.....
im just to bored..... so im here to brag about my marks all the way....
sob sob sob sob sob
when i get high... he gets higher....
when im moderate.... his high....
when his lousy im worse...
i mean............ *totally speechless*
cross fingers....
hope i can get top 10...............
once we accept our limits, we go beyond them
im free...... flying like a bird.... with no wingspotong steam right.... haha
anyway finally first term examz are over....
to tell u the truth its so not like form 1 to form 3 examz at all
normally last day chilling di...... (its always kh thats why)
now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
history and add maths...
i mean HELLO!!!!!
can it be like any worse...
i think im going to die in history paper and BM.....
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i wrote out of topic i think.........
oh no........ >HELP ME PLZ<
going to sob sob sob sob really really soon....
i dun wanna die... its just the firt term and im already struggling like mad....
now examz are over......
i dun feel happy... no feelings at all...
its like..... what if and so on....
i mean i dun wanna have a red mark in my report card book.....
all i love to do is laugh at you....hahahaha....
legin and neal doesnt know who i like....
wakakaka....
actually lamby and all the other ppl doesn't know.... isn't it sad....
i like......................
chocolate... nah im just fooling around since i dun know what else to blog about....
lets see.....
ill be blogging bout err what i did for my cny???
hmm... i did stuff....
sleep, eat, watch tv, surf the net, chit chat with ppl, visiting, fooling around, hang out with friends since we're all too bored....
ordinary stuff....
anyways... k la....
for legin..........................
i like..................................
myself.... im serious now....
i tell u i dun like anyone u say i lie.....
then i tell u someone.... tembak shj...
u dun believe....
what u want me to do leh.....
k la k la... i shall now tell u who i like legin............
its..............
really him...
u better read this and dun get the wrong person again...
kesian u...
think whole day who your sister like.............. haha
this shows how bored i am....
take your undang test soon... cuz i want u to drive me
~smilez~
you....all i want is to be with
you
 but will you take me??
what happen??Happy friendship day ppl!!
i know im a day later... oh well....
hope u'll all have a wonderful year....
and to guet cheng, zhao wen and audrey happy birthday!!!
i know its a bit early.... but its better to do so....
anyways................................
thx for all the gifts.... u guys are the best..... dun wanna mention names... but thanks a lot......
i miss u guys so much....... at least yesterday i got to talk to you guys during debate..............
and happy chinese new year......
hope ang pow will be big this year for all of you guys.....
~smilez~
happy happy happy!!!Im here to blog about.......................
my good friends birthday.... i barely have the time to talk or even say hihi to her... sorry manda....... so i hope this will pay off.... hehe
happy happy happy birthday to you amanda!!
i know im super hyper today.... can't blame me.... anyways take care manda.....
i miss you
 it just goes on and ondoes life have to be so mean??
i'm getting sick of this world!!
all i ever wanted is to live a simple life... what am i facing now???
one after another!!!
i don't wanna live anymore...
i don't wanna be me....
i don't wanna be with you....
i don't wanna think bout you anymore...
i just don't want to think about anything!!
i cant focus on my studies....
i just can't live without you...
i just cant..........................
and i don't want to think about you..............
i don't want anything.....
can't you just leave me freaking alone????
but not in the dark....
the brightest place you are able to find???
no point wasting my breath....
why??
cause you don't give a damn bout me...
if i rot...
u'll say... so what
if i die...
u don't give a damn bout it....
why am i still thinking bout you then???
i just don't get it
i miss being my old self again!!! im gonna lose it pretty soon....
calling 911 for help.... the truth is...what comes to the first thing in your mind? The truth, the way and the light?
anyways... words ought to be a little wild for they are the assault of thought on the unthinking
 people often complain,
what a small world we've got,
but for me,
i rather have it small,
and meet you than having
it so big but missed knowing you.
relationship often ends,
we don't know why we like a person after a while,
without knowing why we love to jump into comclusion,
thinking me and you will last long,
but in my heart, my little voice in it says,
don't do it! it will hurt in the end.
every happiness always ends with tears,
the greater the joy, the greater the sorrow.
you think life is always getting better,
quit thinking that because it will only disappoint you more,
you think a rock hit you hard enough,
the next thing you know,
a bigger rock had just hit you.
life will always be different,
it just keeps getting worse and worse,
you think you're doing alright,
but open your eyes and see the rest,
you'll realise you're not doing well enough,
try harder?
the result will only disappoint you.
i myself have been hit many a times,
not once, not twice but million of times,
not a rock, not anything small,
but it's a bus,
sometimes,
being alone isn't a thing you want,
but do you have a choice?
~love being someone else... but being myself will always be the best~
i rather be hated for who i really am than being someone im not i miss my friends!!well all form 4 undergo the same process and feelings...
we get spilted after form 3... most of us actually...
so the following people is the one i miss the most...
All in all.... i miss the porcupine clan so much.... not neal =P since i still have him in my class... hehe
does life have to be this cruel??well life was great at first... finally getting myself together...
got straight A's for PMR... which is pure luck but keep hearing people say yeah right and stuff... do i look like a person that is lying??
even if i am... u can see straight from my eyes... but im not...
just got to know my class... im in belian... see how sad... my close friends all went to balau...
me... alone... wanna make friends also super hard...
same class with my cousin... lol... cursing away... just hoping not to be with him...
aiyoyo... really got him...
school started... what a bad start already.. me sitting down here thinking about form 3...
wa its just an awesome year i don't mind repeating at all... seriously!!
people are willing to help me... haha without my friends...
i wont even bother to study... with their help... TADA
like magic only.... now that im all alone....
just myself living in darkness... sigh...
no hope at all.... camp...it's christmas day!!! wondering why im not celebrating??
just finished celebrating with only one more other family...
see how boring it is... christmas isn't really christmas for me this year...
somemore i got no present... so jahat my parents didnt even care of getting me anything...
use to it already lar anyway
nothing seems like christmas to me this year...
anyways im not here to blog bout chritmas since i don't feel like it...
camp was like only 3 dayz lor...
really funny to me... cuz i hardly talk... hahahaa... so not like me...
shy mah... malu u know...
 ppl so dunno me in that camp man.... they think im just sooo quiet....
hehe... overall camp was great... it's different from the others lor...
the jungle trekking was a bit irritating... wondering why??
stop go stop go...
gosh man... somemore raining plus i wasn't feeling too good either...
4 freaking hours... and it was soaking wet...
i got leech bite
guess where?? leg... nah nvm lor...
but my butt also have... hahahaha cool right...
that's all for now.... till then...
can't i be someone else??everyone thinks life isn't fair... well, it's ture to me...
because things often gets the other way... not the way you wanted things to be...
somehow being someone else makes you feel better...
but being yourself has it's advantages...
maybe you're shy? and you wanna be well-known...
think again... when everyone knows you...
you do something wrong... people will start disliking you... whereas... is you're shy...
no one really notice...
the best is be true to yourself and everyone can see the light shinning upon you...
after all, you can judge which is your real friend...
when things doesn't go as plan... hard times...
you'll realize which friends is always there to share your pain that you're going through...
that's only call a friend that cares....
i'm really lucky to meet my friends... because when im feeling down they were always there to pick me up...
if you haven't find one... don't worry... because i got your back
i'll be always there when you need a pal... all you need is just to ask me...
life isn't always the way you want it... things can't be undo...
words that have been said can't be taken back...
just remember everyone makes mistakes... so if you want to point a finger towards other people accusing them for making a mistake...
why not give them a second chance?? even if it doesn't work... give another...
don't ever give up trying...
every second chance begins with a first step... never take that away from anyone...
~when you feel lonely and don't belong in the world... i'm always feeling that way... so you will never be alone~ speechlessi really have nothing to blog anymore...
every single day... i'm just living my life... as a ordinary girl...
 came back from atria... i saw a very nice book...
too bad i didnt bring money so i could not buy it... 20 bucks only
the book is sooo nice and sooo cheap... im deadly serious...
from 80+ discounted till 20?? why not...
its about wording art sort of thing....
*sigh* anyway im not here to post about the book...
more of how boring i am till i have nothing better to do...
sitting down doing nothing... wow could life be anymore worse??
i think it can...
anyways just watch a couple of movies again...
somehow i never get bored for a few movies...
mostly fairy tales... why?? because i rather live a life in a fantasy world than reality... there's more joy and laughter....
class party.....well.... it was port-luck so..... i followed someone there... when i reached...
saw my frenz already in the pool... and it was about 7 di....
boring right!!
then when i put the food down... guess who i saw??
the gang that is superb quiet in my class...
and i under estimate them not to turn up because i tot they wouldnt come for functions...
then i recieve the most shocking news of my life... like OMG!!!
why him of all things???
one of the member in the porcupine clan is dating someone...
lol... nevermind... anyways back to the party... the responds was great i guess bout 20+ ppl
highlights of the day
PC fairchaos... lol... super sad had to walk bout four rounds.... came back tired... argh!!! dont even know why i followed in the first place... hehe guess i was just too bored at home... i dun understand why.... my father went on friday... bought other stuff he wanted... sunday we went again.... still that long... bout seven hours of standing.... i think thats seriously crazy.... wanted to buy another Mp4... parents didnt let... cuz mine haven spoil YET!! now what shall i get for christmas???
*the fullfillment is always in the wish* back from Port Dicksonnothing much happen there...
3 days... now im at home again...
can u find a hotel with DVD player?? hell no!!
mine has... and how?? cuz my dad brought it...
kinda make the room into cinema =)
that's what i love.... watch movie till i went nuts...
now so tired... *sigh* back to my old life....
where it is pretty boring... hmm the beach was fun... saw ppl playing beach volleyball...
looks sooo fun... wish i could play... too bad no one was there to play at that time...
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now i barely even say hi to you anymore... *sigh* prefect... and the jobs...
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